So with everything that I have gone through towards the end of the summer I thought that it would be a good idea to write it all down just to help get it more off of my mind and to help with the healing process a little bit. I am not good at hand writing it out so I decided to type it out (plus this way I know that I won’t lose it as well). But I never imagine how hard it was going to be for me to do this. There are some parts that are easy to write down just because it does not go into detail about what happened but to write down the detail parts is really hard for me but I know that I want to do it but just didn’t know how hard it is until I started. This is going to be harder then what I ever thought it was going to be. A lot has changed and a lot more change is coming and all I can say in my mind is FUCK!
