June 2011
1 post
struggling
So lately I have been going through a really rough patch. I took a job at a summer camp and I thought that I would be able to be at a summer camp outside of Minnesota and everything would be alright. I thought that I was strong enough to handle all the memories and triggers that I could possibly have from what happened…
Well I guess I was wrong. I guess summer camp is just not for me...
April 2011
1 post
everything I worked for is up for question...
Tomorrow I have to take a stance on doing something that I didn’t do in front of the whole student senate. I have to wait and see if they are going to vote me out of my position of Director of Legislative Affairs tomorrow and if they do decide to vote me out I am done and I can’t do anything about it. I am trying to come to peace with everything just in case I do get voted out but just...
February 2011
1 post
the possibility of going back to where it all...
So I am sitting in a coffee shop today enjoying the wonderful 45 degree weather that Minnesota has right now and an over powering thought came into my head that I should go and visit camp again but this time go with somebody. I called one of my closest girl friends that I have up here and she is going to come with me after she is done hanging out with her mom. So in a couple of hours we will take...
January 2011
2 posts
one word
So for one of my classed we do an online discussion and this weeks topic is called “one word” and what I have to do is use one “describing” word to describe myself to my class mates but I don’t know what word best describes me. For those of you who know me what you do think? What is one word that best describes me? Be honest to I am curious to see what you guys have...
Couldn't sleep last night I thought this was over
Every time I closed my eyes from 2:30 on last night I imagined myself back up at camp. I imagined myself hanging out with my last croup of teen aged boys on our canoe trip or at camp just having run. I imagined myself hanging out in the tents with my co-workers and remembering those summer nights of just going out to the field once I took the campers back to their tents to look up at the stairs...
December 2010
1 post
stupid winter storm
So I am experiencing a pretty heavy winter storm right now and it fucking sucks! There are cars that are stuck all over the place because people up here decide to be stupid and drive in this shit. It’s a complete white out and its messing up with my plans for tonight! Plus I am super board. Any suggestions on how to keep myself entertained?
November 2010
6 posts
Why does it matter is the 21st century who gives a...
So about a month ago my best friend Chris (who is black and the only reason why I say this is because in this story it makes a difference) and I were hanging out at school about ready to say good bye and go about doing our own thing when we gave each other a hug in the middle of the cafeteria at our college. Now normally this is not a big deal and we really don’t see a problem with this...
Scared about the next step to take
So ever since school started I have used Student Senate as my comfort place since I have gotten rapped over the summer time. I knew that coming back to school would be a really hard thing for me to do and I just wanted to bury what happened and just get back to what use to be my normal life. So I used Student Senate as a place to do that.
It started off not being a bad thing to do but over time...
Thoughts on my mind lately
So there has been a lot on my mind lately with it been five months since I got rapped (still a hard word for me to say) and with the one year anniversary of my Meeme’s death come Monday not to mention the news about my Gramps being in the hospital due to getting a nose bleed which wont stop because of the blood thinners that he is on due to him having a bad heart.
So with everything that...
Last night
Went to where it took place tonight. Didn’t get pass the gate to the place, didn’t get out of my car and just cried instead. I didn’t get to complete my good bye I am not strong enough to face that place by myself at least not right now. Maybe next time will be different. At least I tried right?
best little brother ever!
So I just talked with my brother via text message about me no longer going to see a therapist and talking about what happened. The following is a comment made through out the conversation that we had and it just shows you how awesome that my little brother is!
And I know that you are strong willed enough to put it behind you and continue on like you have been without having it control you.
Two...
I have a great professor
stated below is a response from a professor after turning in a reading response to a text that I had to read for her class. This is a woman’s literature class as well might I add.
Abby: First, what a dedicated reader you have become. Many students found this text to be too erratic, too unfocused, too non-linear (read that: male). You are becoming an effective, insightful reader of feminist...
October 2010
9 posts
Registered for Classes
I am so excited to register for my fall classes coming Monday! I already have all of my classed picked up and know what I am taking for the most part. The one thing that I am not to sure on is the internship that I applied to at the Capital. We will just have to wait to see on that one.
Class that I am taking
Math
Environmental Ethics
Intercultural Communications
State, Local Government
...
its going to be a fun bike ride
I get to back home from school after having a crappy day in 40 to 50 mph wind! This is going to be so much fun!!!!! Let see if I can stay on my bike while trying to get home! Wish me luck!
today
Today I am taking the Math placement test to see if I can test into Math 80 so that come next semester with school I can take this math class and then transfer on to my dream four year school in Madison Wisconsin to continue my education with a leadership and organization in the non profits degree with maybe a little political science in the middle. Wish me luck! I take it in about 20 mins or so.
My work never stops
So I have been working on this huge event that is happening next week on the 19th. I have gotten all the candidates from the Govenor, U.S Congress and Secretary of State to come and speek to the students here at Minneapolis Community and Technical College about their campagin and to answer some questions that the students have for them. This is a BIG deal and I have been working my ass of for it...
interesting quote of the day
The gravest danger we face as a nation is not from the far right, but from a bankrupt liberal class that has lost the will to fight and the moral courage to stand up for what it espouses. They embrace cynicism, a cloak for their cowardice and impotence. They use inaction and empty moral posturing, not to affect change… but to engage in an orgy of self-adulation and self-pity. They refuse to...
If you don't have anything to do check this out
So if you guys don’t have anything to do at 3:00 Minnesota time which is 4:00 Kentucky time you guys should watch a senate meeting and watch me in action!
http://citycollegenews.com/
go to this website and then click on live and you can watch it live while it all happens!
I miss the way that things use to be. I know that I am in a better place with everything that my life as turned out to be but I just miss the old life that I use to have.
September 2010
7 posts
one word on my mind
FUCK!
Outlet
So I think right now I am going to use this an outlet just to let everything that is on my mind out somewhere when I don’t know who to call up and talk to up here. I mean I have great friends but sometimes it’s just not enough you know?
So yesterday was a really really bad day for me for some reason. It felt that everything just came up all at once. I had so much hatred inside of me...
Thank you!
I wanted to say thank you to everybody that posted something about my poem that I wrote you guys. I am really in awe with all the support that you guys gave me. I was not expecting it but THANK YOU for your support and everything. It means more then you would know. So THANK YOU once again!
safe place
So if you follow my sister on this thing or are friends with her then you know my story and what happened over the summer time with me. I realize that this place is a safe place for me right now and recently I have been doing a lot of thinking. I have has some really awesome days but recently it has been hard. Friday I found out a friend is going to die from 4th stage lymphoma cancer which is in...
August 2010
3 posts
GOTV
Starting the Get out the Vote Campaign. Going to try and get 1,000 students registered by October 12th! Wish me luck.
the hardest thing to do right now is to write it...
So with everything that I have gone through towards the end of the summer I thought that it would be a good idea to write it all down just to help get it more off of my mind and to help with the healing process a little bit. I am not good at hand writing it out so I decided to type it out (plus this way I know that I won’t lose it as well). But I never imagine how hard it was going to be for...
one crazy summer
So after everything that I have been through this summer just at camp alone coming to Maine was the best idea thus far. I have lost a couple of close friends due to some major conflict that we couldn’t seem to get pass and another major event happened in my life which I don’t care to talk about via the internet. But I have to say that out of everything that has happened including the...
May 2010
12 posts
Coming home tomorrow
I am getting on a plane tomorrow morning at 6:45 and departing the wonderful city of Minneapolis to go back to Northern Kentucky to spend about two weeks there before I come back up here and work at a summer camp all summer long! I can not tell you how happy I am that I to be coming home tomorrow and get away from here for a while. It is a much needed break if you ask me. The only downside is that...
It's been one week
It’s only been one week and I am scared to get back on my bike. I have been walking to and from school but that takes longer and biking is quick but I am scared to get back on and start to ride places. Any suggestions on how to over come this problem that I have?
Packing up sucks
So I have to pack up my room before I leave for the summer and it’s just one of those things that I hate doing. It’s something that has to be done but still it’s no fun. I did decide that if my clothes don’t fit into the chested draws that I got from my roommate that moved out then I don’t need those clothes. I also realized that if the rest of my stuff does not fit...
Goal in life
So I was talking to a really good friend of mine over Facebook and he asked me what I wanted to do in life. My answer
I am going to be done with me A.S degree come next spring and then I will hopefully get into UW Madison in Wisconsin and get a degree in Community Leadership and Organizing in the non-profit and work with the youth and homeless population.
He then told me that he was proud of...
Weird thought
So I have been out of high school for about 4 years now and I am seeing all of my high school friends graduate from college this year. It’s weird to think that 1- I have been out of high school for 4 years and 2- that I won’t be anywhere close to graduate with my undergrad until I am about 26 years old.
It’s just interesting to read about peoples graduations when I am so far...
Records
Just bought about 20 records to play on a record player that I got my from my grandparents house.
I AM SO HAPPY!!!
Surprisingly not Tired
So yesterday all day long I was really sore from getting hit by the car. My whole right side of my body was just so sore and all of a sudden yesterday afternoon everything kicked in all at once and I feel asleep in one of my class which I have never done before!!! I didn’t fall asleep for too long but I still did.
So I bought tickets to go and see Iron Man 2 the midnight showing so I...
Today was an interesting and Good day
So today I won a position on the Student Senate Executive Board for next academic school year. I will be the Director of Legislative Affairs! Which is pretty exciting for me. This means that I will be going to the Capitol next year and talking to our Representatives and Legislators about higher education and tuition cost and keeping that as cheap as possible as well as talking about the issues...
Interesting interaction
So I just got done with meeting with a Professor that I am going to help teach a college class next semester. Yup thats right I am going to be co-teaching a 3 credit college class next semester!!! Isn’t that a little scary (I have had many anxiety issues about this at times).
Anyways I was introduced to a women that goes to the campus who is black (will leave out her name). I was telling...
Iron Man 2!
I am going to the MIDNIGHT showing of this movie!!!! I am super excited about this! Every time I see a preview for this movie it makes me really happy! I feel like such a nerd but hey I am ok with that! I am going to see it with a good friend of mine up here and possibly with some of her friends.
I am a little worried though because I have not seen a midnight showing since I was probably in high...
Immigration March
So yesterday I went to an Immigration march dealing with the reform that was taking place in Arizona. Apparently Minnesota along with 9 other states want to pass something along the lines of what Arizona just passed within the past two weeks! (which by the way is nuts). This whole issue is nuts. I have been reading article after article about this and WOW! Does it amaze me at what people are...
April 2010
4 posts
This makes me happy
http://www.alternet.org/environment/146658/us_approves_first_offshore_wind_farm
This is rediculious
http://www.nytimes.com/2010/04/26/nyregi on/26homeless.html?scp=1&sq=homeless%20m an%20dies&st=cse
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2010/04/28/harvard-racist-email_n_555247.html?ref=fb&src=sp
Ashley you will like this
So I got recognized yesterday by TWO different clubs that I am heavily involved with on campus by being a student leader! I got a certificate and everything. I guess all my hard work is paying off and people are noticing. Every once in a while it’s nice to have people notice you for the work that you have done.
Just thought I would share this with you guys!
It's been a while
Sorry for everybody that keeps up with me on here. There has been a lot of things happening to me all at once in the past couple of months and it’s been hard to deal with. I am also not the type of person to pour my heart out over the internet so yea but I wanted to post a couple of things up here that I have been reading about and find some of them awesome and others scary as well. So I...
March 2010
7 posts
proud owner
I am officially a proud owner of 3 cacti!!! Pictures to come…
Text Messages with my Sister
Abby: Mom and Dad are also listening to Lady Gaga right now and Dad is dancing to it.
Me: WHAT!?!? What song and in what context?
Abby: Bad Romance. Dad was getting pretty in to it.
Dad put on a great show!!! He is a GREAT dancer while driving!!!